Never Let Go.....

I just absolutely couldn't sleep last night. I tossed and turned all night long. My mind would go between all the highs and lows. I thought about the bed that's been empty for so long in the boys' bedroom.........wondering if it will stay empty. I thought about the hope of what getting a visa means (last post)......the excitement of being united. I still envision us as a family.........and yet wondering when that will ever happen. I didn't really know when it was said that international adoption can be unpredictable..........I didn't really take into account that we'd have to endure major hurricanes and earthquakes...........I missed that warning. Good thing.....I probably would have been scared off. I think about how we'd be feeling had our paperwork been about 2 weeks faster and Aidan was home.............but then again I don't know if I could have dealt with such joy and transition and yet such despair for Samar. It IS all in God's timing......

Even though there are the immediate US thoughts................I just am broken for the country of Haiti. I don't even know where to start with that thought. I've seen things that I didn't think could get worse...........and they are. I've been touched by Haitians............and so badly want to help them now. If we just make it all go away....

somehow in every thought process I found myself singing......"oh Lord you never let go, every high and every low. Oh Lord you never let go...you never let go of me."




I'm just so thankful we serve a God who will carry us through EVERYTHING!! He won't let my thoughts wonder too far from him........He's ALWAYS there. My thoughts are stopped so that I can praise Him. Did you see the part of the video that there is this tiny earth in God's hands.......how powerful!!