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It's been a whole year since I was with Aidan!!

Oct. 3 of last year we were coming back from doing our paperwork in Haiti and meeting him. It's hard to put together all the thoughts that go through my mind. There are times I can't believe it's been a year. Times has flown. In fact the other day I commented that if you would have told me it would be a year---i would have expected to have everything perfect and prepared for him. Well, Yes---we're definitely prepared for him.....but "perfect" has yet to be defined. If things were perfect............I'd be fluent in Creole, I'd have his photo album started of his life story and up to date, I'd have the house in perfect organization and we'd be waiting around doing nothing. But quite frankly, I think when he joins us we'll do all the life stuff together with him. His photo albums will be just as far behind as the other kids', and house projects will still be happening and he will just be helping with them. So yes.............we're still patiently waiting and still just waiting to do life with him.

If it's possible to go fast and slow at the same time, we're experiencing that too. It's been the slowest time because it seems like we've known about him for forever. I can't believe how much of his life we're missing out on. I get angry at the same time---not for us, but for how much of his childhood is being taken away..............he could be enjoying a family already. I get impatient, bitter, thrilled for the possibilities, excited to have him home, filled with dispair................and then I just push all those emotions away and become numb to it all. There is nothing I can do....................

oh yes, I know God is in control. Yes--life goes on and time is filled up. But there are also real feelings the rear their ugly little heads sometimes. It's hard not to ache when Alyssa prays at the supper table, " and God please, please, PLEASE send Aidan home because we just really want our brother home."

okay--so enough of my venting. I try not to vent, so sorry. I don't want to have a pitty party, but there are times this process gets weary.

Now for the good news.

We had some new pictures show up in our "in box" this weekend!! And I'd have to say they are some of the cutest ever :)

Actually as I'm typing this I think maybe it's the updates that are bitter sweet. I LOVE the updates. Absolutely positively LOVE them. It's a way of feeling connected and watching him grow, but maybe there is some bittersweet to them. I think my initial reaction is excitement, but then it turns to frustration and disappointment and being angry at the process.

Anyways, here is the sweetest boy in Haiti..........

Didn't he take good "school pictures"?

Another exciting event......the Michigan Haiti group is having a Selah//Avalon benefit concert in honor of GLA!!!! I think this is huge!! And I think it's going to be a GREAT evening!! I think both groups will be awesome to hear and we will have the privilege of having the orphanage director in town also. And it's all to raise money for the O. So if you are around the area, we'd love to have you join us for the event!!!

It would be awesome if Aidan were home for a weekend of Haitian gatherings and events, but I guess second best is to spend time with families who are in the process or who have already adopted kids from Haiti. So we're looking forward to these great events :)

One more thing........so here we are adopting another child too---a little girl. I guess I'm still waiting to get some "official" referral stuff. Yes--we're in this process since Aug., but it's waiting for the paper trail to catch up and so we haven't started our "official" updates on her. I will post more on her and how she came into our lives, but just wanted to let you know I am definitely not forgetting about her. Not possible :) You can add that to my vent list.............just how long simple processes can still take :)